I would like to introduce one of the topics I have a feeling I am going to write about often; my health issues. After reading a few blogs written by women that suffer through the same symptoms as I do, I was comforted in the fact that someone else out there really understands, I felt I should share my story in hopes to maybe comfort someone else and also to raise awareness. I cannot really cover everything in one blog post as my issues are ongoing and have been plaguing me for the last 14 years but I can write a quick overview.
- At the age of 15 I was seeing a counselor due to many factors going on in my life and was put on Prozac. I had depression and anxiety. Some of that came from being a teenage girl and some of that came from pressure in my home life. I remained on SSRI’s until I was 26 years old.
- At the age of 16 I became sexually active with my boyfriend and was put on Depo-Provera. I continued to be on Depo for 5 years. Not having a cycle the entire time.
- By the age of 18 I was experiencing “tummy issues” (which is a polite way of saying I couldn’t do anything without knowing where the bathroom was).
- By the time I was 20 I had spent thousands of dollars on tests to find out why I never felt good. I had also switched to Zoloft and upped my dosage to help deal with the fact I wasn’t living the life I wanted to be living. I mean at that age you are supposed to be out living life at the fullest but I was sick in bed or at the doctor’s office. After all those tests all the doctors told me was I probably had IBS which was partly caused by my anxiety. So pretty much they kept telling me it was IN MY HEAD… I started to believe it too. So I gave up for the next 4 years and silently suffered as my quality of life kept going downhill.
- In 2007 I had a laparoscopy done, where they found Endometriosis… Hello culprit! I remember feeling so elated that they finally found out what was wrong with me and that it really wasn’t in my head! What I didn’t know was how hard it was going to be to deal with Endometriosis. I had a name but there is no cure. There is no awareness. I just had a big name to put to my “sickness” that nobody understood. After much reflection I really think the Depo had something to do with my internal problems (I am not a doctor it is only my personal opinion.) I mean it is not natural for a young girl at such an important developmental age to go without her period for 5 years. I refused to go on any drugs my doctor tried to give me, even birth control. I JUST DON’T TRUST THE DOCTORS OR THE PHARMACEUTICAL COMPANIES! So I Lone Rangered it again.
- In late 2010 my quality of life hit rock bottom. I was still on Zoloft (150ML) and I couldn’t figure out why. My doctor didn’t regulate me taking it she only filled my prescription. As far as I could tell after 10 years of being on anti-depressants my life still sucked, I still felt crummy. So I quit taking them cold turkey. WHICH I WOULD NEVER RECOMMEND TO ANYONE. Talk about scary, I felt like a heroin addict coming down. The withdrawals were terrible, my husband almost left me. It took a good 5 months to snap somewhat out of the crazy dimension I put myself in.
- 2011 I went to a naturopath. She did an allergy test and found out I was allergic to Corn, Chocolate, Soy, Carrots, Clams, Cauliflower, Yeast, Beets, Dairy, Egg Whites,Pineapple, and sensitive to Gluten. She also gave me some supplements to help with my emotions and the effects of the Endometriosis. After thousands of dollars spent a $200 visit changed my life. I changed my diet and have seen so much of a difference!
I still have bad days the week before and during my period is pretty rough but the other two weeks of the month as long as I stick strictly to my diet/exercise plan I feel ok. Now I never take any pharmaceutical pills (not even over the counter stuff). To deal with my anxiety I see a hypnotherapist, do Yoga, and meditate. I am far from the quality of life I wish to have but I am so much closer than I have ever been. Every day is a struggle and I still have days I am bedridden. But I have hope; Hope that one day I can be the me I am in my dreams!